I remember hating yard work. I hated mowing the lawn…especially mowing, ok pulverizing, over all the mole hills in our front yard. I hated sweeping. I hated raking leaves.
In fact, many times, whether it was raking leaves or using other tools, I ended up breaking them. The tools didn’t break from my hard work. They broke because of the aggressive force against my knee, or the ground, snapping them in half. Not good. My poor mom must have been so worried to see me angry so often.
My mom’s worry and prayers were warranted and for those worries and prayers, I am thankful. I believe that they made an impact on who I am today.
Looking back, my anger could have gotten the best of me. It could have easily taken me down the wrong road. God’s protection was definitely there, every step of the way.
My heart and soul have been changed over the years. I’m actually pretty mellow now…for the most part….except for the other day when my beard trimmer wasn’t working right and I broke it in half (true story), but other than that, I really don’t get angry any more. By the way, the beard trimmer incident was embarrassing. Nobody saw it, but I felt like that little kid, mowing over mole hills, breaking rakes all over again. I let it go though, tomorrow’s another day.
We’ve all been shaped by our past in some way, haven’t we? Some of us have been shaped for the good and some of us have broken our own array of tools. What’s important is that we recognize where we’ve been, who we are, and the people that we are becoming.
In my case, some of my old patterns have shown themselves later, in subtle ways. I’m thankful that I serve a God who knows me much better than I know myself. Better yet, He sometimes uses even my greatest weaknesses for His glory. Pretty cool.
Our past certainly doesn’t need to define us. What it can do is add flavor to our journey. Hopefully, our flavor will rub off on those around us….maybe even those who are facing the same obstacles that we once faced. So let’s add flavor wisely!
“This is the day that the Lord has made; let us rejoice and be glad in it.”-Psalms 118:24