A funny memory came to mind the other day. I was friends with this girl on my street. I believe we were in kindergarten. We hung out here and there and I remember having a big crush on her. In fact, in my school picture, I was looking down at her with a cheesy smile on my face. Kinda cute really.
We lived down a country rock road and we often walked together to the bus stop. One day, as we were walking home, I decided to do something genius…..in fact, I thought it would be the most hilarious thing ever……in fact, I knew that she would be impressed with my wit and spontaneity….I dropped my drawers, turned around and mooned her. I flung those chubby buns out for all to see. Awesome, right? Nope, not really. I don’t remember her freaking out or anything, but I don’t remember her giving me a high-five either. What I do remember is not hanging out with her anymore. I was now the creepy kid who reveals his buns for approval and laughs.
My feeble attempt to gain approval didn’t work. We all search for approval don’t we? I know I still do. We don’t need to drop our pants to gain approval….we do other things like talk about our stuff, status, money, accomplishments. Sometimes, we may exaggerate a bit, just to add that extra-interesting flavor to our life.
God created each of us in a unique way. We each have different gifts, abilities and strengths. The bible talks many times about us using our God-given gifts boldly….if our gift is teaching, then teach….if serving, then serve….if leading, then lead. So many times, I haven’t been satisfied with myself. It’s almost like I’ve felt the need to convince others to like me, to think I’m cool.
I’m learning to just be myself. It sounds simple, but it’s been a long road. I love how God created me and I love how God created you. If only we could boldly just be ourselves, gifts and all, without having to show each other our “buns.”
Have you ever found yourself doing silly things to seek approval?