A couple of months ago, I had to take a break from writing.
The reason is kind of embarrassing…….ok, really embarrassing……I was writing for other people. I was writing to please others. There was pride involved. I was constantly worried about who would comment, “like” or affirm my “great” words of wisdom.
It was not a good place to be in, so I stopped. I tried not to think about it.
I had to re-focus on why I enjoyed writing and what led me to start this new venture of sharing my thoughts in the first place.
I was driving down the freeway about 6 months ago and I seriously heard a still, small voice tell me, “Paul, you need to start writing.” I know it sounds weird. You know, the whole “God spoke to me” thing. It’s true. It was kind of like those random thoughts you think while day dreaming, but it was persistent. I prayed about it, hoping that I was just thinking weird thoughts.
For about 2 months, I couldn’t shake it. The thoughts just kept coming. One day, I basically just prayed, “Alright God, I’m trusting that what you are saying is true. I will start writing. I don’t know why, but I will, in faith.” I felt a peace right then.
Since then, I’ve been writing my thoughts here, on this blog. I truly have NO idea why I am writing, but I’m continuing to trust. I’m doing my best to yield to a bigger purpose, whatever that is. Hoping and knowing that God has a plan for my words…..not for my glory, but His.
You see, I’m not talented, God is. My words are God’s words, speaking through my fingers.
This is where I need to stay….giving all the glory to Jesus. It’s not about importance, it’s about obedience. Being His hands and feet. Using the skills and abilities that He has given me.
For me, I feel called to write down words. Again, I’m not exactly sure why, but I’m trusting. Hoping that the Lord will grant me the patience and grace as I attempt to follow His lead.
What are you being called to do? How have you responded?